Friday, March 7, 2014

Excruciating

It’s Friday, and the weekend looms ahead of me, filled with that most excruciating of experiences:  the getting of feedback.  I’ve submitted a couple of my more recent short stories to a writers’ group, and I will be hearing their unabridged opinions at our next meeting.

Feedback isn’t always pretty.  Writers’ groups contain people with a variety of experiences, opinions, and differing levels of writing and critiquing skills.  While some people like to try to understand what the writer was trying to do, and attempt to pitch their feedback accordingly, others come from the hold-nothing-back camp.  Of course, we’re all there to learn and to understand our own writing better so that we can improve it, so the forthright opinion of our peers is valuable.  But it needs to be constructive, not destructive.  It is possible to be honest without gouging out the tender roots of a beginner writer’s confidence.  

What do I mean by this?  Studies have shown that it's usually the more experienced learners who want to hear negative (but specific) feedback.  People who are just starting out welcome more positive comments, because they need the encouragement.  In a group with a variety of experience and, more importantly, confidence levels, it can be quite tricky to know which end of the continuum to pitch your comments to, so inevitably there will be some misfires.  It pays to put on your psychological flak-jacket before seeking feedback from a group, in case you’re on the receiving end of an enthusiastically well-intentioned mortar attack.

So, armed with my bullet-proof silk & mohair fingerless gloves, I have submitted two short stories for the consideration of the group. I wrote the first of them several months ago. I loved the process of writing it, and felt very pleased with the result.  Since then, the satisfied glow of completion has ebbed a little, leaving me wondering how successful it really is.  Re-reading it, I’m not sure it is as smooth as I’d first thought.  It’s short, very short, maybe painfully so.  But I think it might still contain enough cleverness and charm (and “punch”) to satisfy the reader.  

The second story is brand new, and much rawer as a result.  It started, as many of my stories do, with a single burning scene in mind, and the rest of the narrative has grown around it in misshapen concentric rings.  I’m still much too close to that interior place of creation to have any ability to judge either the story or the quality of its delivery.  In my inner eye, the salt marsh locale is beautiful, desolate, and gloomy, but I’ve described it sparingly, and maybe some readers will want more physical detail.  I do know it’s still quite rough in places, the pacing is a little clumpy, and I really need to learn a whole lot of new words that mean “grey”. 

On the other hand, some aspects of this story are quite nuanced, requiring the reader to make a leap.  I know from experience that not all readers are able or willing to do that.  Some people expect to have every last, excruciating plot point fed to them, with a disposable plastic spoon, no less.  And after a beta-reading by a family member who expressed denouement disappointment, I suspect there will be quite mixed feedback on this one.  And that is a good thing, if it helps me to understand how it is received variously in the mind of the readers.


Thursday, March 6, 2014

the strange pull

Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull 
of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.

~ Rumi

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Key words

After filling myself with that unique blend of inspiration and wonder that comes from attending a fabulous writers’ group, I had a tiny, effortless moment of insight. 

I was thinking about writing.  About my own writing, and what exactly I aspire to.  I imagined for a moment that someone else was describing my writing, and the words that I would like to hear them using to describe the essential qualities common across my body of work. 

As soon as I’d framed the question, the answers came – each one arising with clarity and colour in my mind: 

Strange
Beautiful 
Truth

Strange – because strangeness stretches us, grows us and gives us new understanding.   In essence, strangeness is at the very heart of originality. It’s the new, slightly askew view, the novel approach, the uniqueness of a thing. 

Beautiful – I aspire for my work to be lyrical, to capture the fragile moments of ordinary and awful beauty that wash over us and around us, often unnoticed.   

Truth – I aspire for my work to contain at least a fragment of truth – the truth of our shared humanity.  While truth is a many-splendoured thing, and its name has been put to the service of terrible crimes, there is another type of truth:  the unadorned place of connection, the sacred space from which the power of sharing our stories arises.   We do something profound when we acknowledge the reality of another person’s lived journey.  We can do this when we gift our readers with a piece of ourselves, so that they can enjoy the jolt of recognition in an otherwise imagined/imaginal/fictional reality.    

That’s a big ask, right? 

Yes, and no.  I’m going to write what I’m going to write.  It will be what it is.  Along the path to publication the writing will be held up to objective standards, those elements of the craft that are determined by either consensus or debate to be what is required for “good” writing, for publication, or even for commercial success.  None of that, however, creates any personal impetus or satisfaction:  that, my friends, must come from within.  

Once you have overcome the peculiar notion that even a single person on the planet might want to read what you have written, everything else about the quest for recognition and readership becomes even more absurd.  No two people will ever share the same opinion of your work, because each reader brings a part of themselves to the story that they are reading.  Essentially, you are pitching your work to an endlessly shifting finish line.  

So what, then, can a writer aspire to?  Fortune?  Not often.  Fame?  Not likely.  Popularity? Oddly mediated, and even more fickle than ever in the age of the one minute meme. 

The only thing left to aim for is to write something good.  And the only definition of “good” that will be even remotely useful to the writer is the one they have crafted for themselves. 

Strange beautiful truth, it is, then.